People have accepted Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior because of the many debates Charlie Kirk engaged in. The breadth and depth of his Bible knowledge was amazing and his ability to put forth rational and logical arguments based on his knowledge persuaded many minds.
My struggle is that in reading the Bible, I have not found a situation in scripture where Jesus initiated a debate to present his message of redemption and salvation. I find many situations where Jesus engaged in debate only as a response to the criticisms and attacks he faced from religious leaders because of the message he was presenting.
Jesus’s message resonated with and touched hearts as well as minds. As a teenager, I felt out of place at church because all my friends had already walked the aisle, made a profession of faith, and been baptized—most of them as children. But I was, and still am, a scientist. I put my trust in the ideas and concepts that can be empirically observed, measured and verified. But the afterlife, the Trinity and Heaven cannot be observed, measured or verified.
There is a chasm between belief and faith. But no matter how long, how deep or how wide the chasm is The Cross can bridge it.
Definition of belief: An acceptance that something is true or exists, based on evidence, reasoning, or conviction.
Definition of faith: Strong trust or confidence in someone or something unseen, without requiring proof.
If the afterlife, the Trinity and Heaven could be absolutely proven then faith would have no eternal value. I was reluctant to believe because nothing could be proven to my mind regarding the spiritual realm. And my mind overruled my heart because that is how a scientist behaved in my thinking.
But after completing a Bible study in Sunday School where we did a side-by-side reading and comparison of scripture with The Hobbit my heart was affected in a way that opened my heart to faith. I realized that my heart had faith even though my mind had not yet embraced belief.
Since then I have gained trust in Jesus and confidence in scripture. The growth of belief from faith is a work of the heart and is an inner transformation. And that transformation is not linear or predictable. It has ups and downs and ebbs and flows. I take comfort in knowing this is part of the Christian journey.
There is a story in Mark about a father who brings his son to Jesus for healing. Jesus declared that if the father can believe it is possible for the son to be healed then he will be healed. The father makes a statement that resonates with me.
Mark 9:23-25
New King James Version
23 Jesus said to him, “If[a] you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.”
24 Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!”
Fifty years after being saved there are still episodes in my life that challenge my belief. It is my trust in Jesus and confidence in scripture that sustains me in those difficult times. And it sustains me now as I lament the senseless death of Charlie Kirk. He is a child of God, brother in Christ and made in the image of the God he loved and served. He is now in the loving arms of his Heavenly Father. And yet my heart aches for his family and my mind hungers to understand why?